7 Weeks Pregnancy - pt3

Today went to see gynae to take my second blood test. It is been so nice of my sister to company me and in a way she shows her support and love to me.

During the consultation, the gynae explained to me on the 1st result took on Wednesday and it does shows that the hormone level is in pregnancy level. I ask him a few question which I need to clear my doubts too.

1st thing is with this kind of bleeding, shall I able to tahan. He check my eyes and say I am able to make through. Then the chance of the fetus to survive with such a heavy flow bleeding, well, his answer is "we never play with God..." and hard to say baby will survive until the result proven it is supporting the pregnancy. He did actually left me a choice that I can end up the pregnancy if I feel stressful and really wanted to do so, he will respect my decision. But some how for me since the final result will be out tomorrow why not I just wait for another day. So, I decided to continue with the second test. Yes, some people might think that the hormone level test is not a indicator but I trust that the gynae has his own expertise point of view to confirm what he needs to advice the patient. And me as a patient I need the Dr advice me to know what I should do next. But in another way, the Dr needs an evidence to tell the patient to end the pregnancy rather just judge from the scan alone. As for me, I don't want to be the one to tell the Dr to end a life like that just because I feel stress with bleeding and worries. So just leave it to the "evidence" and let the Dr tell me what's next. After all he is more expert than me....

Next, charges. Surprisingly and praise God he charge Rm1000 plus only. According to him, if I use anesthetic, the bill can easily goes up to RM2000 plus. If I take pain killer and put me in sleep mode, it will cost lesser. So, tomorrow will go there again and wait for the result than see what next we need to be done.

Pray God for tomorrow's result and what ever the outcome is I trust God has all in His hands. Thanks for all your prayer my friends and deeply I appreciated it...

7 Weeks Pregnancy - pt2

Today is already the 3rd day I have bleed. Still no sign of stopping but lesser flow compare with yesterday. It's not good sign to me coz deep down inside me already alarming that I have already lost my baby.

So the next thing I need to prepare is for the D&C (Dilation & Curettege) procedure to clear the womb. This process cost roughly around RM2000 plus in KL but only cost RM1000 plus in Ipoh. So, tomorrow if the gynae advice me to proceed with D&C, got to check charges first. If the variance can be nearer to Ipoh's hospital, I will prefer to do it in KL.

So leceh to travel back to Ipoh and travel back here again the next day(got to know also that after the D&C, can go back straight for rest, hope my husband won't ask me to travel back on the same day). I missed my boys and I don't think my mum in law can handle 3 boys over night. Some more father in law also not feeling well these few days. Sure she will be busy like no body else. But husband still prefer in Ipoh coz charges difference about RM1000!!!

Now, need to pray hard that GOD will provide and able to get a reasonable charges in KL so that we do not need to travel to Ipoh and no need to put the burden onto my mum in law's shoulder.

7 Weeks Pregnancy

I wanted to record this moment as I might loss this "baby" anytime from now.

I bleed since yesterday after lunch and discover the bleeding when I went wee wee. Immediately went to see my gynea and gynae did a virginal scan. The little fetal is still there but no sign of heartbeat. So he just advice me to take more rest and incase bleeding gets heavier and cramps happen, I need to come back to him. So, just went back and took some rest and on and off need to attend to my boys at home. But there's still no sign of bleeding stops and decided to call out to some friends whom are ex-midwives. Their advice almost the same, just rest in bed and inserts some cushions under my knees in bended position or legs raised up position.

This morning when I woke up to morning call Samuel, I went to the toilet and noticed I really like having heavy flow period and with minor cramps. So, after dropping Samson to his kinddy I went to see my gynae again. Again he did a virginal scan but this time he prepared me with some advice. According to his experience, the little fetal might not make it thru the pregnancy. No heartbeat is a symptoms but he will not advice to do the D&C coz heartbeat sometimes might be vary from different people or even different pregnancy. So he suggested me to go for a blood test to check on my hormone level just to make sure his judgement is correct. According to him when a women gets pregnant, the hormone level will goes up double in 48 hrs. Today he took my first blood test and will compare it on the next blood test which will be on Friday. If my hormone level confirm drop than it is confirm my little fetus can not make thru the pregnancy and most properly I need to do the D&C by then. I also worried that the pregnancy might not make it till Friday coz till now my bleeding still consider heavy.

All my friends and even myself praying hard for this little fetus, but I really hope that God's hand laid in this situation and I trusted that God is doing what is best for me. Yes, at the end of the day I might lost this "baby" but I believe that God is still my strength and my future is still in His powerful hand.

Look at this scan took yesterday during the virginal scan. I want to keep this moment in this blog and remember that this is my 4th baby that been comes into my life even though it's only 7 weeks.

Just Love This Beautiful Smile...

Look at this cute and yet cheeky smile Shawn had.

Whenever you called his name he will return the same cute, cute smile to you and that does really make me wanna pinch his little cheek. (Mummy so geram.. must cubit...)

Every Sunday we will attend church and Shawn now can follow the worshiping section. Like clapping his hands when we sing and worship, raise his little hand when I raise up my hand to GOD..

I think he is enjoy himself so much coz this is the only day he escape from home and the rest of the day in the week is only at HOME!!! Haha, mummy and daddy busy with works and grandma prefer to be at home to do her cooking, so no choice but have to stay at home with grandma loh!!!

New Year New Hope

Have been busy past few weeks and really got no time to update this blog. Busy with Holidays!! Busy with Samuel school open day etc...

Year 2008 sure a new year to me and definitely with new hope and looking forward with more blessing to comes. God is always great!!

First good news in year 2008 is I am pregnant for 5 weeks now and expecting no 4 baby in September. Wow!! 4 kids!! That's the 1st thing came into my mind!! How to manage oh?? Well, God always have His plan for me and I totally rely on him to provide.

Samuel in standard 2 now, Samson is in his K1 in kindy and Shawn enjoy his childhood, happily go around the house, manja, manja with everyone. Our marriage surely blessed by God and we appreciate each other even more but we do quarrel a bit sometimes.

All my friends out there, wishes from me to all of you and may you be blessed with great joy in year 2008!!

Christmas 2007!!

Wow!! Time flies!! Christmas is around the corner and surprisingly all Christmas deco in shopping mall was done up so fast!! Went to Pyramid on Saturday with Samuel and Samson; when we reached the Pyramid new wing's hall, WOW!! Christmas trees, presents, candy house and also a Choo-Choo Train ride for kids is just perfectly being setup. Suddenly all my Christmas mood raised up to the tip of my head and can't wait to melt myself into the atmosphere. Oh.. Christmas!! My favorite holiday....

The Boys love the deco so much and keep telling me in a very high voice; "Mummy! Mummy! Christmas! Christmas!" I said "Yes! Yes! Christmas is a birthday celebration. Do you know who's birthday is on that day?". Then all my boys say "It's JESUS birthday!!!" That's what I told them the meaning of Christmas. I know it should be more than that but try to input bit by bit each year as they grow up becoming a man and understanding fully the real true meaning of Christmas.

Oh ya!! It's also time for me to list out all my friends' name list and do the Christmas Shopping...That's the most headache part... But the most enjoyable part and also my most favorite part is the gift wrapping part. Time to show my wrapping "Kung Fu"!! Haha.. but 1st of all, let's done up my list first....

Kissing, Kissing...

Shawn can do the kissing now with anyone that he likes or whenever he wants to. When I say "kiss, kiss to mummy" and show my lips to him, he will put his lip on mine..but definately a wet one..haha..

Nowsday, he loves eating so much. Anything we put into our mouth, he also sapu(swipe) together. He ate ice-cream (i think it's his favorite food), biscuits, fruits and etc,etc,etc...

He walks around the house very steadily now and learn to climb up to the sofa. He is good at climbing down from sofa by crawling backward and let his leg touches the floor first. He is definately good with all his physical skill and do it all by himself. I think maybe he obverse how the brothers do it.horrr... Oh ya, he also knows how to stack the toy and step on it, so that he can keep himself "High" and reach out. It is dangerous but can not stop him from his creativities to do all these.

With all the tricks he had, I still prefer his kissing tricks yea...It's really melt his mummy's heart.