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Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Shawn So Cute...

My little Shawn really cute loh...

Everything he do nowsaday really impress me..

Last night, the daddy bought him some sweets and he kept all his sweets in his pocket. Than later I ask him to offer me his sweets and he answered me "Can Not!!" in cantonese and added "Finish!!"..

Last night, when we on the bed, I ask him to kiss me for good night. He kissed all over my face and than say "I love you mummy too!!" that's his language.

He also very cheeky and loves to made cheeky laugh..

How I wish I can keep this moment forever!!!

Friday, December 26, 2008

Potty Train Shawn

I had my 1 week leave on 06/12 till 14/12. Since didn't plan for any trip, so I decided to stay at home and be a full time mother and wife. Oh, Parents in law so happy that they were able to off for holiday in Ipoh for that week since I told them I will taking care of the children. I almost cook for my boys everyday and they enjoy mummy is staying at home with them for the whole week.

One important mission planned for that week was to train Shawn how to use the potty. I bought one traditional plastic potty and started the training right after the PIL off back to Ipoh.

Shawn enjoy sitting on the potty but not doing any business in the beginning. So I put him diapers free and told him that if he wants to "shi-shi" must tell mummy.

First few days really a mass as Shawn don't like to poo or pee in the potty but after few accidents and my disciplinary, he finally start doing his business in the potty. The pee not so bad, he smiles when I show him his result, only when he poo that's really torture. He tahan is poo-poo for 2 days and when I saw that can not tahan face, I quickly got him to sit on the potty and watched him doing his poo-poo. He cried and cried for his 1st big business and was like someone biting him. Immediately I praise him for his good result than gave him a sweet as reward. He smiles....


Now already 3 weeks and he is doing very well. Manage to tell me every time he feels he wanted to do business. But one thing is that he dislike his potty, he rather poo or pee in our toilet. He likes to do it like his second brother; putting the additional flap on top of the adult toilet flap. So now he doing all his business like an adult liao.

X'Mas 2008

Wow!! This year's Christmas is so special to me, hubby and the boys!!

We had a family count down on Christmas Eve at Sunway Pyramid...


The boys enjoy it so much coz this is their 1st time going out to the public and count down together!!

The only disappointment we had was no fire works happening that night. We went to Borneo RainForest to had our countdown and ordered Marco's Pizza as supper while waiting for the count to come. Shawn loves the Pizza so much until he raised his thumb.

The next day, on the actual day of Christmas day; we rushed to the church at 7:45am as Samuel participate an important role for Children church item. He needs to makeup and dress up as Joseph..

Joseph

Joseph, Mary and Baby Jesus


Than in the afternoon about 3pm, our Prime Minister came to our Church (FGT) and celebrated Christmas with the Kids. The Kids presented 2 songs to the Prime Minister and having privilegeto queue up and shacked hand with the Prime Minister.

Downloaded from Utusan Online News

Well, indeed we feel so privilege and blessed with such a special Christmas we ever had before.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to All!!!

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Samson With His New Glasses

On Friday we went shopping at Giant and we passed by an optical shop. So, we decided to put Samson on his eyesight test coz we do noticed that Samson always sits very close to the TV or sometimes squeeze his eyes so hard when watching TV.

Result came out for his eyesight test was shocking enough for me and daddy. The optician says Samson is having astigmatism and it's about 250 on one eye and another one about 260. He also says that we should bring Samson to see eye specialist and check on his eye coz at his age it is hard to tell how accurate the machine is.

So, we went to the eye specialist on Saturday. The optician checks on his eye again and put him on the reading of alphabets. They also put some eye drops to make his pupils bigger and check again by the Dr. Dr advices us to come back on Monday and get Samson to put on the same degree they've got just now. Dr also says by than he will know that whether Samson able to tolerates with that degree and if he able to tolerates with it than Samson can make his 1st glasses. And the new reading from the eye specialist is 100 on his right eye and 75 on his left eye. Wow!! So much different! As what Dr has mentioned, children below 12 need to see eye specialist in order to get the right advice on their eyes. One day must bring Samuel to do his eye check again from the specialist.

Monday, Dr confirms his degree and we went to the optical shop to choose his glasses in the evening. He got his glasses ready yesterday evening. He can't wait to try on the glasses and show off to his brother. I wonder how long he will take care his glasses, sign....

Haha, look at him with his new glasses on... not bad ya..

Shawn The Barber

Yesterday Shawn found a pair of scissor inside my first aid kit box and what he does is he cut his own hair. Daddy was in the toilet and left him alone with the 2 koko in my room. The two koko noticed it but couldn't border to stop the brother playing with the scissor. I know that old pair of scissor no longer sharp anymore and it's also quite heavy for a 2 year old to play with it. He managed to cut his hair at the front and on top of his head.


Anyway, I do praise GOD that he doesn't cut his fingers or ears or ........Thank GOD for that!!!

In the event, two koko got lectured and Shawn of course got his as well. Daddy put the first aid kit in the wardrobe outside which also a store room to us. When I came home yesterday evening, I also give him my warning but all he does was giving me a beautiful cheeky laugh, sign....

Shawn nowadays really can not leave him out from your sight coz I remember there's one day I saw him climbing up my book shelf to reach to something that he noticed and wanted so much to have it. Praise GOD too that I nailed my book shelf onto the wall when I bought it from IKEA.

Well, all incident happening is really can not be avoidable especially toddler like him. I put my trust on GOD and HE will watch over all my 3 precious boys when my eye need some rest... ;)

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Shawn 2nd Birthday Celebration

We had the cake blowing ceremony for Shawn last night. I bought a Pandan layer cake, only 1/2 kg; simple and nice. He enjoy the event but not seen on face; he looks blur. I think the most enjoyable part for him is the cake cutting ceremony.


Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Pangkor Trip

Just came back from a long Raya holiday. We went back to Ipoh on Wednesday(1st day of Raya) and then depart to Lumut Jeti on Thursday and travel by ferry to Pulau Pangkor. I and my husband brought 4 boys with us; one of them is my brother in law's son.


They never been to Pulau pulau before so they really enjoy themselves so much there. Especially at the beach and don't know why they still enjoy so much at the hotel's swmiming pool.

Samuel and Samson love the beach and sand but Shawn don't really enjoy the sand. Maybe he felt not that comfy to step his feet on the sand. That's really reminds me when Samson also having the same problem when we brought him to the beach at Penang few years back. I think he was about 2 years old too. Same reaction..haha..scared of sand..


Btw, sand at Pasir Bogak not really fine. Oh ya, satay fish there really nice ohhh... Bought few packs for family and friends. Ikan bilis also not bad, very silvery.


We stayed one night at Coral Bay Hotel and it's a nice hotel. Depart the next morning after the swimming section again and leave Pangkor about 12 noon.

Luckily got this sling to help me to carry this 12kg little fella.. Sign..

Shawn 2nd Birthday

Today is my little Shawn birthday and he is 2 years old now. Better go home early and get him a small little cake for him to blow. Sure he will loves it very much..

He is good at singing birthday song, so let him sing for himself tonight.

Monday, September 8, 2008

Shawn Lunar Calendar Birthday

Shawn Lunar Birthday is round the corner. It’s actually on the 16th of eighth. Shawn is turning 2 this year and every time when moon cake festival coming, it’s always bring me back to that year in 2006 when I was pregnant with Shawn.

On the night of 15th of the eighth in Lunar Calendar (it was Friday), I went home from work and had my dinner and took my bath. So decided to bring Samuel and Samson for lighten the lantern at the play ground. The boys so excited and pick up all their lanterns and candles waited for me at the door. I also happily go with them; right after I locked my door gate and step out for few steps, I heard a sound “pop” and warm water flow out from my pants. Immediately I stopped and turned back to my door gate and called out to my mother in law. I know at that point that my little baby is coming. I felt so sorry to my boys and no choice but have to turn them down by cancelling the fun time.

I called my husband and we rushed to the hospital that night. Admitted to the hospital around 10pm and waited at the labor room for the big show to come. Husband needed to rushed back also to arrange all his things and by the time he came and sees me again it was around 12:30am and it was raining outside. At about 1 something, I ask my husband to go back and rest because I don’t know how long he needed to wait and tomorrow he got business to run. Shawn came to the world later mid morning and he looks like my dad..(that’s my 1st impression ;)…) Discharge on Sunday and it was very hazy especially on that day which this kind of air condition happen to Malaysia every year..

That’s how my memories been recalled every year on how he came to the world on such a special occasion and easily reminded by the family members. And this will continue be reminded coming years…

God blesses me for what I have today. I thank God for his plan and always there for me whenever or whatever I do. Thank you Lord Jesus!!

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Shawn New Pocket Diaper

I have been measuring around for a long long time to convince myself to buy this new product to little Shawn. Major issue is due to the pricing which I find that it’s too expensive to me where it’s about RM80++ per diaper. Of course long term it would be very cost effective and I would recommend it to start investing since baby is small. But now Shawn already 23 mths old and it is still sound not worthy to try or invest.

So I done some research and fact finding from the website and finally I decided to get one and try on from Mia Bambina. Maybe I can replace the disposable diapers at night time with pocket diaper; well at least can save RM34 per mth.


I’ve got the Bumgenius in blue for Shawn and on the night itself I have tried it. Result? I love it!! Now I regret for not buying this pocket diaper to Shawn when he was little. The one-size Bumgenius I have now seems like can fit on Shawn for a very short period; maybe 1-2 months only. I always regret with a lot of things by thinking too much… hehe...

Later I ordered the Happy Heiny with the cute little cow print on it. I have tried it too on Shawn and the result is not as satisfied as Bumgenius. But one thing Happy Heiny got a bigger size compare with Bumgenius. So I think the Happy Heiny can last longer on Shawn.


Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Sibling Fight..

Lately Shawn and Samson like to do the fighting and really Shawn is a good fighter. I have been talking a lot with both boys but still they just easily get into it when triggered by either side. I guess boys are like that.

Shawn is almost 23 months old and he really shows off what he had learnt. The headache part is he likes to kacau his brothers by pulling their hair, slap on their face (even his cousin sister also had it on Monday), shout out loud when his ko-ko accidentally touch him, stick to me like glue (no wee wee) etc...I surrender

The cute part is he sings nursery song taught by Sunday school...(Jesus loves me) with action some more; keep saying I love you to me, do the kissing every night, must sleep next to me, will gently touch my face, doing his stuff by himself and etc...I feel blessed..

Well, this is their childhood and my parenthood. All of us continue learning till our last breath on earth. God bless us all...;)

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Shawn Melted My Heart....


On last Sunday, Shawn pulled my hand and keep calling "Mummy! Mummy!", then I answered him "Yes!! Darling..". Then he say "Mummy! ai ya u!". My heart melted and I returned by saying "Darling.. I love you too!" and with a big muak muak.

That's sweet right!! I understand what he says coz me and the 2 ko-ko has been teaching him to say "I Love you" since few weeks ago.

He's been trying to developed his speech lately and able to speak many words with very clear pronunciation. So proud of him. ;)

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Shawn - 21 Months Old

Shawn is going to celebrate his 2 year old birthday very soon. He grown up a lot and becomes more active and learning skills very fast.

Managed to catch him spoon feed himself (see photo below). One good thing is that he will clean up his table every time when he put one spoonful into his mouth. He saw me doing that and that's why he will follow exactly for every spoonful he puts in and the excessive food drops out from his mouth.



He is also able to sing songs with action and his favorite songs are "Twinkle, Twinkle Little Stars" and a children Christian song (name unknown) with his both hands put together and face up every time the word "Bible" sings out.

But also he is very cranky as well. Like to throw his tantrums to his brothers and especially on me. He also very sticky to me whenever sees me; won't allow me to do my stuff privately.
Anyway, he is a cute and also a loveable boy. I still like to pinch his little cheek and sure he will purposely act the painful emotion out from his face. Oh ya with sounds as well like "aissshhhh"; he is very good at it.

Speech wise; he can say "I love u", "Thank you" and etc with unclear pronunciations. But basically you know what he's trying to say. And definitely knows how to complaint about his brothers, what he saw from TV and etc... Blah, blah, blah all the way until I responce to his complaint. Cute right ;)

Monday, June 2, 2008

Been Very Very Busy!!

Due to Father In Law health condition, I have neglected this blog for quite some times. No choice loh...

Shawn has been shouting a lot lately. Who ever don't give him what he wants, sure will shout as loud as possible. Umm, it's time to teach him some lesson. He understands what is No, No but still he will continue his shouting.

Oh, one more... Cry and cry and cry out loud to achieve what he wants too.. sign....Boys...

Sorry to say that I don't believe in talking to a 20 months old boy and expect him to understand it is rude to shout and cry for something he wants. So, have to show him some little punishment like leave him alone to cry for mummy will not give hug hug if he throw his tantrum like that. Oh ya, he smart; he will turn to his elder brother Samuel for love and hugs. Samuel will look at me and I will give him some signal whether can or can not.

Ya, parenthood not easy especially with BOYS!!

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Got Frustrated!!

Last week, Samuel had his second semester exam in school. The result he got back was poor and all below 80 marks. I have been sending him for tuition and still shows no improvement. As a mother who cares for his future really feel frustrated.

My Father In Law admitted to hospital since 10th of April. Has been one month plus that the whole family in and out the hospital daily and dine outside. I guess because of that, we have neglected Samuel's revision and preparation for his 2nd term exam. I also felt that he is not really prepare enough for this exam. All of us was too tired to do other things. But some how Samuel is really not doing well and he actually messed up his maths calculation.

I have run out of idea how to help Samuel to handle his school work. I know both of us are under pressured.. :( Should I just let him be and not to push him at all?? I can tell my pressure to him consider mild compare with others but he seems to be taking for granted. What should I need to do next???

Monday, March 31, 2008

Shawn's Speech.

Shawn had a high fever last week and that helping me to build a panda patch at the bottom of my eyes. For 3 nights he has been crying and "nyek" almost from 2am till 5am.

When after his fever almost gone, amazingly he starts to speak some words like start calling everyone at home with the most accurate pronunciations. Firstly besides he can call "ma-ma"(grandma), "yea-yea" (grandpa) and "Mum-my"; he starts to call his two brothers "Ko-Ko" and also his father "Dad-dy". Not bad ya, 2 different sound in age 1 and half. He even calls me "Ah-Mee" when he's searching for me around the house or when he wakes up from his nap.

Whenever you instruct him to do he knows exactly what should be done correctly. He still giving his best trick to melt his mummy's heart - the sweet, sweet smile.... I do really, really love his smile. Oh ya, every night he will serve towel to his grandpa and that his grandpa's heart sure melt many, many times liao... ;)

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

I Am Back !!

It's has been a long rest for me and really do not have the urged to write anything after the incident. I took a long, long rest not just physically but also mentally. Overcoming depression is not an easy issue.

Now, I am ok and feel excited again to start to write about my boys, at least I have 3 princes to take care and feel blessed to have them around and cheer up my life.

Shawn progress so well, he started to call me "mummy" whenever he sees me. When I sit on the floor, he will quickly come to me. Before he could sit on my lap, he will call me first "Mummy, Mummy" and give me a wet, wet kiss on my cheek. He's now 18 mth old and only recently extra 4-6 tooth came out at the back of his gum. He got extremely good appetite and eats what ever we eat daily. He consumes 8ozs of milk every 3-4 hourly and 1 solid food during dinner. In between meal time, he takes biscuits and fruits. Every time when we open the fridge, out from no where he will squeeze himself in and quickly grasps a grape and quickly puts it into his mouth. I really enjoy seeing him doing that. Of course, he also turning more active and trying so hard to get our attention. He baby talks a lot with his own rhythm, we really don't understand what he is trying to say but surprisingly he understands what we instruct him to do and follow exactly. The only words we understand what he is saying is only "mum-mum", "bao-bao" and "mummy"... ; not even like to say "nen-nen" or "ko-ko". He will just point to the things that he wants and start to mumbles in his baby language.

Samson already turns 5 in Feb and will share his photo soon. He spell all his number in words from 1 - 12 and able to read his level 1 Peter and Jane story book. I bought him a sticker as a reward and he chose his favorite cartoon character, "Rat-A-Tooi". It cost abt RM6 per piece and he actually gave away some to his friends, ko-ko and jie-jie in church. I am trying to push him the BM suku-kata before he actually left far behind like his big brother. He is now in K1 and I really feel that my responsibilities to do revision daily with 2 boys are no longer an easy task for me.

Samuel is turning 8 this April and he's getting more mature than before. Sometime still fighting with Samson but he is now more willing to let go the toy if they fighting for the same toy. Well, taking care of boys is not easy task and really need a lot of patients. That's reminded me that there's one Sunday, I met a new friend and when I told her that I have 3 boys, she said "You must be very patient...." I looked at her and shake my head, trying to tell her that it's not true. I used to be a patient type of person but after having 3 boys in my life, I think me no longer a patient type. Anyway, back to Samuel; he is in std 2 now and every morning have to wake up at 5:30am and catch his bus at 5:50am. I have to wake up that early just to wake him up. After he goes off with the bus, I will take abt 10 min to do some light exercise then go back to bed till 7am and prepare myself to send Samson to kindy and myself to work. Transport has been arranged to send Samson back from school at 12pm and MIL will be at home to take care all the boys.

Samuel also had his evaluation exam before the school holiday started on 8 mar; he don't get a good score in his BM and Chinese subject but he shows improvement in his Math. He got 2 subjects with 90 over marks and it's my promise that he will get his little present if he scores 90 over marks for each subject. So during school holiday, I brought him to theater to watch "Horton" and planning to get a watch for him as he request to have one before. Not a expensive one, just less than RM50 is my budget. Oh ya, forgot to mention; he had his first spectacles during the CNY. The optician checked his eye and confirms that he had 100 & 150 degree 散光 on his both eyes. I don't how to call that in English. Hehe....

Well, don't you feel happy and so content to have 3 kids? I am so blessed and I feel so much content having them around.

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Something About Miscarriage

Below is the research I found from babycenter.com about miscarriage which I think most of us as a women should know...

What is a miscarriage?
Miscarriage is the loss of a pregnancy in the first 20 weeks. About 15 to 20 percent of known pregnancies end in miscarriage, and more than 80 percent of these losses happen before 12 weeks. This doesn't include situations in which you lose a fertilized egg before you get a positive pregnancy test. Studies have found that 30 to 50 percent of fertilized eggs are lost before a woman finds out she's pregnant, because they happen so early that she goes on to get her period about on time. If you lose a baby after 20 weeks of pregnancy, it's called a stillbirth.

What causes a miscarriage?
Between 50 and 70 percent of first trimester miscarriages are thought to be random events caused by chromosomal abnormalities in the fertilized egg. Most often, this means that the egg or sperm had the wrong number of chromosomes, and as a result, the fertilized egg can't develop normally.In other cases, a miscarriage is caused by problems that occur during the delicate process of early development — for example, when an egg doesn't implant properly in the uterus or an embryo has structural defects that don't allow it to continue developing. Since most healthcare practitioners won't do a full-scale workup after a single miscarriage, it's usually impossible to tell why the pregnancy was lost. And even when a detailed evaluation is performed — say after you've had two or three consecutive miscarriages — the cause still remains unknown in about half of cases.When the fertilized egg has chromosomal problems, you may end up with what's sometimes called a blighted ovum (now usually referred to in medical circles as an early pregnancy failure). In this case, the fertilized egg implants in the uterus and the placenta and gestational sac begin to develop, but the resulting embryo either stops developing very early or doesn't form at all. Because the placenta begins to secrete hormones, you'll get a positive pregnancy test and may have early pregnancy symptoms, but an ultrasound will show an empty gestational sac. In other cases, the embryo does develop for a little while but has abnormalities that make survival impossible, and development stops before the heart starts beating.
Once your baby has a heartbeat — usually visible on ultrasound at around 6 weeks — your odds of having a miscarriage drop significantly.

What kinds of things might put me at a higher risk for miscarriage?
Though any woman can miscarry, some are more likely to miscarry than others. Here are the most common risk factors:
Age: Older women are more likely to conceive babies with chromosomal abnormalities, and to miscarry them as a result. In fact, 40-year-olds are about twice as likely to miscarry as 20-year-olds.
A history of miscarriages: Women who have had two or more miscarriages in a row are more likely than other women to miscarry again.
Certain chronic diseases or disorders: Poorly controlled diabetes, certain inherited blood clotting disorders, certain autoimmune disorders (such as antiphosphilipid syndrome or lupus), and certain hormonal disorders (such as polycystic ovary syndrome).
Uterine or cervical problems: Having certain uterine abnormalities or a weak or abnormally short cervix (known as cervical insufficiency).
A history of birth defects or genetic problems: Having had a child with a birth defect, or a family history (or a partner with a family history) of genetic problems.
Certain infections: Research has shown a somewhat higher risk for miscarriage if you have listeria, mumps, rubella, measles, cytomegalovirus, parvovirus, gonorrhea, HIV, and certain other infections.
Smoking, drinking, and using drugs: Smoking a lot, drinking too much alcohol, and using drugs like cocaine and ecstasy during pregnancy can all increase your risk for miscarriage. And some studies show an association between drinking four or more cups of coffee a day and a higher risk of miscarriage.
Taking certain medications: Some medications have been linked to increased risk of miscarriage, so it's important to ask your caregiver about the safety of any medications you're taking even while you're trying to conceive. This goes for prescription and over-the-counter drugs, including nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drugs (NSAIDs) like ibuprofen and aspirin.
Exposure to environmental toxins: Environmental factors that might increase your risk include lead; arsenic; some chemicals, like formaldehyde, benzene, and ethylene oxide; and large doses of radiation or anesthetic gases.
Paternal factors: Little is known about how the father's condition may contribute to a couple's risk for miscarriage, though the risk increases with the father's age. Researchers are studying the extent to which sperm could be damaged by environmental toxins but still manage to fertilize an egg. Some studies have found a greater risk of miscarriage when the father has been exposed to mercury, lead, and some industrial chemicals and pesticides.Your risk of miscarriage also rises with each child you bear and if you get pregnant within three months after giving birth.

Saturday, January 19, 2008

7 Weeks Pregnancy - End

This morning meets up the gynae at 11am and results show that on 17/01, my hormone level was 1210 iu/l and on 19/01, hormone level was 1174 iu/l. So gynae confirm that my hormone did not double up in these 2 days instead has show sign of drops. Next advice, proceed with D&C procedure. Husband accompany me to meet up the gynae and managed to have a short chat with him.

I registered myself to the hospital registration counter at 11:30am and made RM500 as deposit. Then went to another room to change my clothes, lied on bed and wait for nurses to give me the pain killer and some jab for me to have deep sleep. While waiting, managed to send some smses to all my friends and family to inform them not to worry about me.

I blacked out quite fast but still in the middle of my sleep I felt that I was being transfer to another bed and I can even felt the 3 inserts during the operation. No pain and it was just like being too sleepy to border what's happening to me. By the time I woke up it's only a few minutes later. The whole process took less than half an hour only. Total bill was RM993.37.

I had a good sleep at home and wake up by my mum in law for dinner. Eat something like confinement mother had but not strictly fully confinement rules. I had ginger fried rice with egg and ginger chicken.

This is surely some experience I had in my life and there's always purpose from God for every moment I went through in life. If this is for the best for my baby and me, I will except with open heart and be glad in it. Thank you friends for all your prayer.

Friday, January 18, 2008

7 Weeks Pregnancy - pt3

Today went to see gynae to take my second blood test. It is been so nice of my sister to company me and in a way she shows her support and love to me.

During the consultation, the gynae explained to me on the 1st result took on Wednesday and it does shows that the hormone level is in pregnancy level. I ask him a few question which I need to clear my doubts too.

1st thing is with this kind of bleeding, shall I able to tahan. He check my eyes and say I am able to make through. Then the chance of the fetus to survive with such a heavy flow bleeding, well, his answer is "we never play with God..." and hard to say baby will survive until the result proven it is supporting the pregnancy. He did actually left me a choice that I can end up the pregnancy if I feel stressful and really wanted to do so, he will respect my decision. But some how for me since the final result will be out tomorrow why not I just wait for another day. So, I decided to continue with the second test. Yes, some people might think that the hormone level test is not a indicator but I trust that the gynae has his own expertise point of view to confirm what he needs to advice the patient. And me as a patient I need the Dr advice me to know what I should do next. But in another way, the Dr needs an evidence to tell the patient to end the pregnancy rather just judge from the scan alone. As for me, I don't want to be the one to tell the Dr to end a life like that just because I feel stress with bleeding and worries. So just leave it to the "evidence" and let the Dr tell me what's next. After all he is more expert than me....

Next, charges. Surprisingly and praise God he charge Rm1000 plus only. According to him, if I use anesthetic, the bill can easily goes up to RM2000 plus. If I take pain killer and put me in sleep mode, it will cost lesser. So, tomorrow will go there again and wait for the result than see what next we need to be done.

Pray God for tomorrow's result and what ever the outcome is I trust God has all in His hands. Thanks for all your prayer my friends and deeply I appreciated it...

Thursday, January 17, 2008

7 Weeks Pregnancy - pt2

Today is already the 3rd day I have bleed. Still no sign of stopping but lesser flow compare with yesterday. It's not good sign to me coz deep down inside me already alarming that I have already lost my baby.

So the next thing I need to prepare is for the D&C (Dilation & Curettege) procedure to clear the womb. This process cost roughly around RM2000 plus in KL but only cost RM1000 plus in Ipoh. So, tomorrow if the gynae advice me to proceed with D&C, got to check charges first. If the variance can be nearer to Ipoh's hospital, I will prefer to do it in KL.

So leceh to travel back to Ipoh and travel back here again the next day(got to know also that after the D&C, can go back straight for rest, hope my husband won't ask me to travel back on the same day). I missed my boys and I don't think my mum in law can handle 3 boys over night. Some more father in law also not feeling well these few days. Sure she will be busy like no body else. But husband still prefer in Ipoh coz charges difference about RM1000!!!

Now, need to pray hard that GOD will provide and able to get a reasonable charges in KL so that we do not need to travel to Ipoh and no need to put the burden onto my mum in law's shoulder.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

7 Weeks Pregnancy

I wanted to record this moment as I might loss this "baby" anytime from now.

I bleed since yesterday after lunch and discover the bleeding when I went wee wee. Immediately went to see my gynea and gynae did a virginal scan. The little fetal is still there but no sign of heartbeat. So he just advice me to take more rest and incase bleeding gets heavier and cramps happen, I need to come back to him. So, just went back and took some rest and on and off need to attend to my boys at home. But there's still no sign of bleeding stops and decided to call out to some friends whom are ex-midwives. Their advice almost the same, just rest in bed and inserts some cushions under my knees in bended position or legs raised up position.

This morning when I woke up to morning call Samuel, I went to the toilet and noticed I really like having heavy flow period and with minor cramps. So, after dropping Samson to his kinddy I went to see my gynae again. Again he did a virginal scan but this time he prepared me with some advice. According to his experience, the little fetal might not make it thru the pregnancy. No heartbeat is a symptoms but he will not advice to do the D&C coz heartbeat sometimes might be vary from different people or even different pregnancy. So he suggested me to go for a blood test to check on my hormone level just to make sure his judgement is correct. According to him when a women gets pregnant, the hormone level will goes up double in 48 hrs. Today he took my first blood test and will compare it on the next blood test which will be on Friday. If my hormone level confirm drop than it is confirm my little fetus can not make thru the pregnancy and most properly I need to do the D&C by then. I also worried that the pregnancy might not make it till Friday coz till now my bleeding still consider heavy.

All my friends and even myself praying hard for this little fetus, but I really hope that God's hand laid in this situation and I trusted that God is doing what is best for me. Yes, at the end of the day I might lost this "baby" but I believe that God is still my strength and my future is still in His powerful hand.

Look at this scan took yesterday during the virginal scan. I want to keep this moment in this blog and remember that this is my 4th baby that been comes into my life even though it's only 7 weeks.

Monday, January 14, 2008

Just Love This Beautiful Smile...


Look at this cute and yet cheeky smile Shawn had.

Whenever you called his name he will return the same cute, cute smile to you and that does really make me wanna pinch his little cheek. (Mummy so geram.. must cubit...)

Every Sunday we will attend church and Shawn now can follow the worshiping section. Like clapping his hands when we sing and worship, raise his little hand when I raise up my hand to GOD..

I think he is enjoy himself so much coz this is the only day he escape from home and the rest of the day in the week is only at HOME!!! Haha, mummy and daddy busy with works and grandma prefer to be at home to do her cooking, so no choice but have to stay at home with grandma loh!!!

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

New Year New Hope

Have been busy past few weeks and really got no time to update this blog. Busy with Holidays!! Busy with Samuel school open day etc...

Year 2008 sure a new year to me and definitely with new hope and looking forward with more blessing to comes. God is always great!!

First good news in year 2008 is I am pregnant for 5 weeks now and expecting no 4 baby in September. Wow!! 4 kids!! That's the 1st thing came into my mind!! How to manage oh?? Well, God always have His plan for me and I totally rely on him to provide.

Samuel in standard 2 now, Samson is in his K1 in kindy and Shawn enjoy his childhood, happily go around the house, manja, manja with everyone. Our marriage surely blessed by God and we appreciate each other even more but we do quarrel a bit sometimes.

All my friends out there, wishes from me to all of you and may you be blessed with great joy in year 2008!!